It is that thing whose first experience you fear.
A thing too hard to handle. A thing too hard to face.
It is that thing that when you finally give in
becomes a life essential that changes everything.
It is ⋮ everything.
Yorgos Marinos, taken from his song “Sex” (1984)
Κι είναι εκείνο που φοβάσαι να γνωρίσεις
Να το κουλαντρίσεις και να τ’ αντιμετωπίσεις
Είναι αυτό που όταν ξέρεις να το ζήσεις
Γίνεται ουσία και σου αλλάζει τη ζωή
Translated for (and taken from) the essay “Our Army of Lovers” by Mare Spanoudaki that appeared in Issue One (“The Cultural and Political Memory of HIV”) of Octopus, the EMST magazine.
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But rejection ⋮ at night.
Ghost boy ⋮ killer.
arkhæio
HIV MEMORY
dubitanda
before ⋮ death emotive ⋮ realm
